Random thoughts

I am tired! Chloe has taken to rising anywhere between 5-5:45 a.m. With me trying to stay up after the kids are in bed to study, well lets just say I am a wee bit exhausted! I need to find that happy medium where I can spend time with the kids, study and still get to sleep-anyone know where that is? Lol! Only 5 weeks of school left! I am really hoping for a better experience this fall with the teachers I have gotten-they really do make all the difference in how well you learn!
This is how I know I will do a better job with the twins than their current teachers do, who loves them more than me? Who wants to see them succeed more than I do? I don't think there is anyone (besides their dad!) who can claim they do :) Once school is out for me and then the kids, we will have time to relax, deschool and plan for our new adventures starting this fall!
On another note, the girls are doing well. Chloe is learning and growing faster than I can believe. Aimee is at the tail end of her Junior year, planning for prom and looking forward to the summer. Cierra and Savannah are looking forward to their upcoming trip to NYC with their Girl Scout troop and Grammy Brown-that will be quite and adventure! I so wish I was going to, but having never left Chloe over night and it falling the same night as Prom, I am missing out on this one. I am sure they will have a wonderful time and see lots of sights and learn many things. Shylah...well she is the same, lol, no changing that beast!
Ahhhh the coffee is done, finally!! Until next time I bid you adieu!

Homeschool

I have been doing a lot of thinking, soul searching and research and I am pretty confident that I want to homeschool Cierra and Savannah beginning this fall. It has been a fairly difficult decisions, because, well anything not mainstream society tends to be difficult! But after much consideration I think it is the best choice for us. They are not thriving in school like I would love to see them. There is a lot of tension with other kids. They don't love learning like they used to. I want that back! I have to get Craig sold on the idea, he is researching, reading and thinking on his own. We will visit this sometime in the near future I believe.
I have read so many websites, so many blogs, I fear (as I guess is natural) that I am highly inferior to the moms I have read about! They are super spiritual, organized, calm, sure, confident...I could go on! I, on the other hand, I am just me! I am not highly organized, tend to be a worry wort and stress case, I have religion and beliefs but am not overly religious or spiritual. I feel as though I am not nearly as good as these moms and hope that with learning along with my children-many lessons,not just school room types, but patience, to be more kind, more generous, I hope to become more like the moms I hold in high esteem. Fingers crossed that when I take the plunge and jump in, I don't sink!!! YIKES!!